Hello world!

Here’s my first post. I’m Kilah Dickey. I’m a mom of a beautiful 6 year old baby girl. She’s in Kindergarten this year and she’s very smart in both english and math. I am extremely proud of her as it hasn’t been easy for us. We also have a bernedoodle dog name Bibbles. She is a rescue and was a momma dog in a breeder program. She’s 8 years old and very gentle. We have a small family by chance and by choice. I am feircely independent and working on becoming inter-dependent.

My daughter is living with my parents for a while because I have been having mental health challenges. I felt like I was on a spiritual awakening but the world didn’t really see it that way. I tried to take off for the beach, which is something my old self would do when I was feel ‘off’. It was strange to others because I didn’t plan it or communiucate my intentions. It didn’t seem strange to me because I used to that for mental health.

Luckily, intervention took place and I was inpatient for a whole 6 weeks which is why my daughter has to go with my parents for a while as I recover. In the past I have had issues with alcohol. I am currently 7 months sober and counting one day at a time. I think my brain is messed up from years of alcohol abuse and I plan to discuss some of that in this blog. I am bipolar which is something I misunderstood the definition of for years until I saw the movie Homeland in which the character becomes manic/euphoric and doesn’t want to take her medicine bc of how productive she can be without it. That’s when I realized… that could be me.

I learned so much on my epic journey into inpatient for the longest run of my career. I have been 2 other times for only a week each and both times there were some recurring themes which included a calling back to my passion of writing. I thought I was being recorded.

When asked why do you think that, well it’s very obvious to me why (“this call is being monitored for quality and training purposes”) but the reasons I thought I was being recorded were worthy of a book so I’ll be writing that book at some point.

With this blog I am hopeful to write! I want to connect and I want to get my ideas out. I want to write books and blog posts and all the things. I am a writer and I always have been.

I’d say my last blog failed because I was trying to be someone I wasn’t. I was doing a health blog but drinking constantly. I just wasn’t walking the walk. This time I’m just going to build the page as I go instead of planning so much ahead. Hopefully something comes out of it but if not it will be good therapy.

There’s so many papers I’ve written for school that I wish I could get back. I still have some, but I am excited to see what this blog turns into. Also in the past I worried too much about design and this one is going to be solely about content. If you stumble across my stuff I really hope you get something out of it and please feel free to join the conversation or request I write something. I will appreciate you for thinking of me as I am thinking of you too.

I think this is a good start. My goal is to post at least once per day. If I ever start promoting anything on here it will only be something I honestly stand behind and purchase myself. That’s the goal. Real, raw, authentic, original content only. Have a beautiful day.

Kilah

Blogger in 2024